How & Why I am Getting Help with My PTSD Issues {part 2}

by GfG on January 28, 2016

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Today is part 2 of me dealing with PTSD, so please be sure to read Part 1.  It was the WHY of getting help.  I shared my realization of the depth of my problem with PTSD related to my mama’s death, my son’s traumatic birth, my son’s near death experience, and Jubilee’s breathing issues while in the NICU.   Today is the HOW.

PTSD issues

Walking through a panicky situation where you relive a moment and see the current one through that is incredibly scary.  And I didn’t and don’t want to live like that.  So, I called a friend who is also a biblical counselor. Her name is Edie.  Why did I choose her?  I trust her.  She has the training.  And she lived through the awfulness of her husband dying in the bed next to her on vacation with their three children and giving him CPR to no avail.  I knew she may have battled struggles of fear.

I met with Edie the week before Christmas and it was great.  Just as I had guessed, she was loving, and firm, and encouraging, and helpful, and fully biblical.  I cried.  I shared.  I listened.

And I left with a beautiful plan.  I share it with you in case you have gone through something similar and still struggle. Or in case you love someone who needs help.

I have never needed to take each thought captive more so and it has never been more difficult.

This mama’s plan for treating PTSD struggles:

  • Read Philippians 4:6-7, I Peter 5:6-7, Psalm 37, Psalm 46, Joshua 1:9; Isaiah 26:3-4, and Psalm 28:7-8 daily and as needed.
  • Memorize and recite Philippians 4:6-7
  • Call lies lies when I think them.  For example, when I start to think that it’s my fault my mom died when and how she did, call that a big lie.  When I start to think I am not doing enough or that Jubilee will die because I will be irresponsible, call it a lie.  When I worry I am not a good enough mama for her, call it a lie.
  • Confess to the Lord when I am anxious and worrying as opposed to resting in God.
  • Talk to myself as a situation is happening about what is real and accurate, even aloud if necessary.  For example, when Jubilee makes a noise that concerns me and I sit up straight in my bed or wake with fear, I first pray, then I go look at her.  I talk the entire time, “Ok, she looks good. Her coloring is good.  She’s not frantic.  She feels good.  Watch her for a minute.  Do I think I really need to use the pulse ox machine or she’s fine?  Do I see anything concerning?  This is not Paul Louis that night.  This is not your mama. I am doing what should be done and she looks just fine.  Want to wake Paul for confirmation?”
  • Leave a situation that is actually fine, but is causing me to be anxious (aka: sleep elsewhere if Jubilee is making scary to me sounding noises in the crib next to my bed and I keep waking fearful)
  • Read chapter thirteen of Trusting God by Jerry Bridges
  • Keep open and honest communication with Paul about how I am doing

I would encourage anyone who struggles with PTSD or PTSD moments or anyone who wants to help those who do to listen to this great session by a biblical counselor who works with vets who struggle with PTSD.

PTSD When Your Past is Your Present (training session by a doctor who works with people who have PTSD)

One of the comments the instructor made that brought tears to my eyes is this:

“[Use Daniel as an example,] but approach this story with great caution…

If you say, ‘Joseph was a good man and when he was faced with difficulties he chose to do good with it and as a result a good God blessed him for it’. If you say that, you will add to the burden to the person you are trying to help.

No one is good.

I don’t make good choices all the time.  Do you? No one makes good choices all the time.
You set the person at a disadvantage if you go there.

Joseph is an amazing example of the grace of God working in the life of a sinful man in order to do an amazing thing.”

While my struggle isn’t exactly the same as a soldier’s, it is real and it was overwhelming.  I can’t fully explain what it’s like to suddenly be reliving a terrifying moment without wanting to do so.

But I do believe with all my heart, soul, and mind that God desires to heal me of this and bring me to a place of perfect peace.  No matter what sounds Jubilee makes.  And that it is not my fault that my mom died that night.  And that I am not a negligent mom.  I just need my full mind and my heart to believe it all.

And, so I trust in Him as I move forward to rid myself of the PTSD beast.

NOTE: I am not a doctor.  I am a level two certified biblical counselor. This is my personal journey to get help.  If you are having suicidal or murderous thoughts, get help right this minute. Do not wait.  To find a biblical counselor near you, look on ACBC’s database. Get help.  Now.

Have you had this struggle?  Do you know someone who needs you to lovingly come alongside them to help?

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