Where is Home?

by GfG on September 18, 2013 · 7 comments

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Last fall I really wanted to buy this shirt for myself and for HB as soon as I saw it in Pinterest land (which of course means as soon as I tracked down the store, not just the image).  Really, really wanted.

texas home

Seriously, it just cried out to me.  It resonated with my heart and spirit.  And almost my PayPal account.

I had one in my size and one in HB’s size in my shopping cart.

But … well… as much as I knew HB would love it and I already did, I knew more so that it wouldn’t be right to buy.

Last Christmas, I was still struggling with our new location.  Our new state.  Our new everything.   Our new home.  So was HB.

Buying and wearing those shirts would have declared a refusal to accept our transplant to New Mexico.  It would have hindered our adjustment and growth. It would have shouted where are hearts were as compared to where God had us.

So I didn’t buy the shirts.

My heart’s desire is to glorify the LORD.

A huge part of that is obedience to His Word.  Another aspect is trusting Him as He leads.

A word for it is submission.  Submission to His Will.

I know, I know. Not a really popular word: submission.

Due to misuse and abuse, submission has gotten a bad rap. Submission is actually beautiful.  And Biblical.

I didn’t want to say New Mexico was home because it didn’t feel like home.  And maybe… I didn’t want it to be home.

Emotions have little to nothing to do with submission though.  It’s an act of the will.

What does home mean?

home   [hohm]  Show IPA noun, adjective, adverb, verb, homed, hom·ing.

noun  1.  a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household.

2.  the place in which one’s domestic affections are centered.
3.  an institution for the homeless, sick, etc.: a nursing home.
4.  the dwelling place or retreat of an animal.
5.  the place or region where something is native or most common.
These are only the 5 definitions of home that are nouns.  There are 26 more!

I know that the multiple meanings can play havoc with the heart.  I do.  Really.

In many aspects home will always be Kerrville, Texas.  It was so formative that it will forever have a place in my heart that is significant.  That’s ok.

Yet, God called me away from there to a new place.  And to refuse to call it home would be saying that I have to feel it, I have to love it, and I have to be established to call it home.

I am fiercely loyal.  Pros and cons for that, as always.  A part of me just felt that I couldn’t call two places home: Texas and New Mexico.  One had to win.

And Texas definitely won.

Yet, my domestic activities are definitely here, in New Mexico.  To keep my affections from being here too would just be sinful.  It would be a willful disobedience to God’s Will for me.  There needed to be a winner, but it wasn’t a state.

And silly as it sounds to see all of that in a t-shirt, I did.

Daily, I asked God to establish my heart here.  To grow my affections.  To make His Will the winner.

And He certainly did.

A couple of months ago, I saw this t-shirt.  Again, my heart leaped out of my chest at its image.

texas love shirt
This time… no guilt in the purchase (and it was pretty much immediate   😉   ).
Yes, I love Texas.  I always will.  Always.
But I love God more and His plan for my life.  And my home: God’s Will.
Where is home for you? 
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